Innocence is an illusion

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 17:24:28 GMT

wow.. coheed was amazing. AMAZING! I haven't had that much fun in a long ass time. Too bad I felt like crap, but at least me and rachel took some sweet ass pictures of ourselves before I was told to put my camera.. lame staff

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 08:35:25 GMT

I am really enjoying my friends here at school. I'm pretty positive that they are people I will be friends with for the rest of my life. I sometimes feel like its just so stereotypical that my roommate is my best friend at school.. but she really is amazing. I'm SOO lucky to have all my friends here.

.. I just like to reflect on how blessed I am sometimes.. I usually try to do it when I feel a heavy bout of depression creeping up on me

jmd

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 12:27:13 GMT

TJE MALE GEMDE OS REA;;Y NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOZARRE!!

.... i HAVE NO isea what I sai up there.. the male homo is really noooo!?? MAYBE!?!! I HAVE NO IDEA

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 21:25:49 GMT

lets recap today:
rachel is a dirty hood rat nigger
I made out with her number nine
I bothered the shit out of her on instant messanger- she was sitting at her desk three feet away

.. yeah.. that was today, oh and I went to class. Oh and my work scheduled me to work both friday and saturday night- bitches

ok, i'm out like trout
jocelyn maureen

now I want to throw up...

Wed, 28 Sep 2005 03:04:40 GMT

So today at work, it was really slow, and paul and I thought it would be a great idea if we did power hour. What is this you ask? Well, it involves drinking two shots of espresso every hour.... for FIVE FUCKING HOURS. Needless to say, now I want to vomit and I can't stop twitching

... waaaaahhhh

Jocelyn Maureen

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 07:24:15 GMT

its tearing up my hweat when i'm with you.. but when we arre appart i feel it too.. and no matter waht i do i feel the same.. with oe without you..

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 17:59:28 GMT

holy crap, I'm not sad right now!!!

Things are going really well right now, and its probably the most exciting thing in the entire world, seeing as how shitty life has been the past month or so. Whats going well you might ask? Well, while classes are balls deep hard as shit, I'm doing really well in them. I get A's on all my effing Latin quizes, so while i might feel like I have no idea what I'm learning, I guess apparently I'm getting it. My Ecology class is ridiculously awesome/easy.. which is great because I HATE science and math and all that jazz. My Mythology class is really fun, partly cus its taught by my latin prof who 1) loves me and 2) is completely insane and left wing democratic. This because its most awesomeness when he pops out with things like "Did you know that a clip of my fingernail has more living cells then a just fertilized egg.. so really everytime I clip my fingernails its worse than an abortion." or.. "Hansel and Gretel were walking through the forest, and then they ran into Jesus." Needless to say, its awesome. What else am I taking?? Oh right, 20th Century American History.. which is INSANELY interresting to me.. because, again, I'm a huge fat nerd.
What else is going on? Oh.. I have like.. probably the worlds greatest friends at school right now. I'm pretty sure I'd go crazy without my girls Rachel, Abi, Karen, Becca and Kara. Our new friends Brian, Neil, Jason Casey (I like to say his full name.. you know, for emphasis) and Tom are pretty suh-weet too. I'm a huge fan.
Work is good.. just working a lot.. a lot.. a lot.. and then some more.
I got my phone fixed! yay! Call me now!
.. I just realized how this post went absolutely no where. its like a james joyce novel..

.. ok.. gotta go get ready for work.. it starts in about an hour

much love!
Jocelyn Maureen

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 16:35:51 GMT

I could have gone to class today.. but no, I didn't

.. and it was awesome

jm

Fri, 16 Sep 2005 23:38:03 GMT

Being single is fun cus I can just stare at every boy that walks by and have crushes on like ten million people

its awesome

jocelyn maureen

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 22:08:25 GMT

now that I've been hurt this bad, I'm sorry I hurt you

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 20:33:52 GMT

I think I might be drinking too much...

eh, oh well

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 05:48:23 GMT

I'm in a super de duper emo mood

.. waah. I like to cry

.. just some songs I heard today that made me think...

Tue, 06 Sep 2005 08:31:31 GMT

where do you go with your broken heart in tow
what do you do with the left over you
and how do you know, when to let go
where does the good go, where does the good go
look me in the eye and tell me you don't find me attractive
look me in the heart and tell me you won't go
look me in the eye and promise no love's like our love
look me in the heart and un break broken, it won't happen
it's love that leaves that breaks the seal of always thinking you would be
real happy and healthy, strong and whole, where does the good go
where does the good go
where do you go when you're in love and the world knows
HOW DO YOU LIVE SO HAPPILY WHILE I AM SAD AND BROKEN DOWN
what do you say it's up for grabs now that you're on your way down
where does the good go, where does the good go

You called to say you wanted out.
Well, I can't say I blame you now.
Sometimes you've got to fold
before you're found out.
Well thanks for waiting this long to show yourself.

Cause now that I can see you,
I don't think you're worth a second glance.

So much for all the promises you made, they served you well
and now you're gone and they're wasted on me.
So much for your endearing sense of charm, it served you well
and now it's gone and you're wasted on me.

You called to say you wanted out.
Well, I can't say I blame you now.
Sometimes you've got to fold
before you're found out.
Well thanks, thanks for waiting this long to show yourself, show yourself.

Cause now that I can see you,
I don't think you're worth a second glance.

So much for all the promises you made, they served you well
and now you're gone and they're wasted on me.
So much for your endearing sense of charm, it served you well
and now it's gone and you're wasted on me.

I guess that all you've got is all you're gonna get,
so much for, so much more
I guess that all you've got is all you're gonna get,
so much for, so much more

Do what you must if that's what you wish,
I can't be a pardon to this
you have a sense that you were born with
You'll find a way to make things right.

I guess that all you've got is all you're gonna get.
so much for, so much more
I guess that all you've got is all you're gonna get.
so much for, so much more
I guess that all you've got is all you're gonna get.
so much for, so much more

Wed, 31 Aug 2005 20:11:30 GMT

I have never been more angry in my entire life.

You are a coward. You are the single most disrespectful person I have ever met in my life. You should be ashamed of your actions.

on a (sort of ) side note, I got pretty drunk last night. I went to work and it took about an hour to realize that it was not a good idea for me to be there. So then me and abi went shopping.. now I have all my school supplies, bathroom supplies and a new purse

... ahh retail therapy

jocelyn maureen

Here I go again on my own...

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 17:02:50 GMT

So yeah.. uh, random, but I'm single now.
Fuckin a

I'm pretty new to this whole not having a boyfriend thing... so my friends, ya'll gonna have to help me out here. I haven't been single for a long extended amount of time since before Jesse.. WHOA, that was a while ago..

I would love to hear all ya'lls calls of love. Thanks everyone who called the other day. I don't really want to talk about the actual break up and how it happened, mostly cus I have no fucking clue what actually happened.

.. think we'll be able to be friends?

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 18:41:58 GMT

fuck

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 21:30:41 GMT

How do you fix something that isn't neccesarily broken? Why is it you can be surrounded by a thousand people and still feel so alone? Why is God a cruel cruel man sometimes?

Jess- I had a blast last night.. we're doing this more often. I hope you made it back without dying and getting raped <3

jocelyn maureen

Fri, 26 Aug 2005 17:05:40 GMT

BEN FOLDS TONIGHT!!!!

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 22:47:49 GMT

waah...
workin 16 hour days is hard

Sun, 21 Aug 2005 22:46:50 GMT

I had an intense life changing experience this weekend.

needless to say, dave matthews was the single greatest concert I have ever been to in my entire life.
41, ants marching, when the world ends, what would you say, crash, two step.. its all felt like a giant amazing musicgastic dream

wow

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 07:07:09 GMT

i am drunk i'm jocelyn denham
i am drunk i'm shmacklyn shmicka-schmackan
its my show i'm andy milonakis
its my show i'm shmandy shikma-shmakis

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 22:42:07 GMT

so.. lets recap my first week back in tacoma

I got a job at the school working in the environmental services dept... mostly we go through recycling. Exciting, I know
I got another job at a coffee shop near campus called NPCC (northern pacific coffee company).. much more exciting than trash
I've been working non stop.. today was my first day off
living with the boys is really fun... i feel like a mom.
I do a lot of dishes
I cook a lot of dinners
I don't actually do any laundry.. chris is wonderful and does it all for me
I miss my bend friends :-(

ok, I'm out to go to the mall.. its air conditioned there and its about 85 here
jocelyn maureen

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 21:24:17 GMT

so.. here's a quick summary of the past week in bend, in all its sunburnt glory

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 05:24:10 GMT

I'M IN TACOMA!!!

AHHH!! yay!

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 15:43:43 GMT

well.. as most of you now know, the BF.. better known as Christopher, is here in town. It's been pretty fun having him, we go to the fair, "help out", then go and hang out with some buds. Last night was REALLY fun, thanks everyone for being so nice and accepting. IT meant a LOT.
Well.. its early right now, like about 8:45.. and I'm awake for some reason.. grr. I gots to head out to the fair today to help mi madre show some sheeps. Hopefully erin will come make a visit :-) .. Then we're gonna mnm it up... just as long as it involves drinking.. I haven't been doing enough illegal activities this week.. my liver is shrivvling up i think.

this post is worthless... main point.. thanks pals for the awesome dinner last night- thanks for being nice to chris - preemptive strike on the thanks for the awesome time that we'll all have at the concert saturday/my last real day in bend.

love,
jocelyn maureen